Text dated 23 July 2011

Saying good bye made everything fall apart. Thoughts are spinning so fast that I almost aint able to walk forward, in every moment in every thought there is you. Not regretting my decision, knowing this is what must be done, but the longing part have never been stronger. It wants to nail me to the ground, force me to run to wherever you are and beg you to change, to need me and want me in your life.
But I know it will never be, you did leave me so long ago even if you haven't admitted it.
So in the end you win, I'm the one going out of this hurt, bruised and torned. I'm the one that will have you in my heart always and wishing things would have been different. You will go on happy, smiling at the world, untouched and whole.
And I want nothing more than you to be happy so I won't wish that you would feel at least a little sadness, just know that I will.
Just remember that you were greatly loved.