Its night...like every night....A fresh wind swells in and lifts the curtains of the room..

The darkness is interrupted only by the light of the screen of my PC, while the sound from the speakers are the music I chose, my mood for tonight...

You look tonight... like every night...and I know you will be with me as always in my dreams... I´ll look into your eyes and it will whisper in my ear, the words I want to hear from your lips. It will make all the distances disappear, together we will cancel the chasm that divides us.. 

Leave us breathless, burning by this passion and ..life.. its our destiny.... its useless to try to resist,... doing so, we would only hurt ourselves.. 

We are destined to get lost... just to find each other..  it was so yesterday.. and maybe it will be so tomorrow..  but then again.. isn't this what the great love stories are made of?

It is not true its something you can only read in books... because I've the proof living on my skin.... and although sometimes he looks like a rather turbulent history, I prefer that for sure, to make me loose my breath and move me for a lifetime...

When you dream, I read it in your eyes, even before you hear it from your own lips... which share my same thoughts... 

It seems to me like a song in the last notes of an ending yet to be written... 

I close my eyes and breathe yet another night... resting on the pillow next to mine, a dream and a desire...and I'm sure the universe will keep us both alive... maybe because this crazy dream becomes more real every night.. or maybe because its just a dream....

Anyway, I'm there, there you are. Exactly as it should be. Exactly as it is. Exactly how it will be. Exactly. Because without you, without your love...I do not fly!!

???

When I'm now looking at you... I have just no idea what I ever saw in you... I remember being in love... How could that be? Was I so blind? So desperate to find someone to share my love with, to hold, to spoil? Doesn't sound like me? Was I just that week and needy so anyone would had been fine?

Doesn't sound like me either? But you keep saying you haven't changed.... So I must...assume... It's the truth... This is the person you been all along.... 

And I just can't wrap my head around it... I look at you... And all I see is darkness... I hear you speak... And all I hear is meanness... I watch you act.... And all I feel is destructiveness...

You are just angry, mean, and so full of hate.

I feel so unsafe with you... Can't relax for a second, no way I can be myself... I just feel the judging all the time, every second... How I'm not good enough...how wrong everything I say and do is... How wrong I AM. 

I look into those eyes... And all I see is black, and hate... Towards me.... What I see in there scares me... Like nothing else scared me before...

I know I've loved this creature... But I can't understand how... Why???

How could I've spent so many hours worrying about you... How could I've spend so much energy caring about you... Taking care of you..... And you think I've done nothing for you... You really have no clue... But I guess that even more so tells me who you really are.

How could I've cried my heart out for this man? How could I ever being ready to give anything to him...doing anything for him?

He's just an animal... Without sense of responsibility, without the ability to truly care and love another.

I've never met more selfishness... Never been more used... Never been thrown away like this... Never meant nothing to a person in this way.

Tonight... Everything died...whatever small, strange particle of love and respect there still was...

You are just not a good person... In any way..

I am truly happy for all the idiots I've met in my life.
They've really showed me what kind of person I never ever want to be!

Once, there was nothing more I wanted than him, holding me in his arms.

Now, I'm not even sure I care if I'll never see him again.

Wow.. How things change..